Innocence does not matter.

Hello my name is Joseph,

My story started when my wife left me she was cheating on me and I was literally going through facial reconstruction surgery due to malpractice. I was alone broken mentally and physically and now I had my ex-fiance’s bills to pay.

At the time this woman meant the world to me and I couldn’t even look in the mirror because of how I looked I decide to swear off relationships. Being a guy I still had urges and drives so I started watching pornography. I always watch some here and there when I wasn’t in a relationship but I figured it was easier to deal with.
Some time passed not sure how much and it’s slowly became an addiction. I wasn’t watching anything illegal but it was pretty extreme. Then I thought of a program called LimeWire and found a program that was very similar.

At the time I was going to University of Central Florida and my day-to-day activities were pretty routine I would download pornography in the morning on the sharing program or person to person Network go to school come back only watch a fraction of what I’ve downloaded then delete the rest most of it didn’t even completely download.

I did this for about 2 years. One day I walked outside I was going to see my professor quite literally Orlando sheriff’s department special forces SWAT the sheriff’s department FDLE all started running at me weapons drawn with assault rifles.
I figured I was in the way until they start pointing at my head at which time they grabbed me and threw me in a vehicle.

They showed me a list a very extreme pornography names that pretty much blew my mind. There are about 100 files in all that managed to be tracked by my computer. I told them that I virtually downloaded thousands a week and I had no idea how these Mass get on my computer. They asked me if I ever typed in hussy fan or Pthc not knowing what the abbreviations truly meant I said it was a possibility . I did not know what pthc stood for and I thought a hussy fan was just well some type of prostitute. I expressly told them that I was only trying to find some freaky s*** to watch nothing illegal and I was not trying to break the law. After they were obviously trying to twist my words around I asked if I could speak to a lawyer and that’s where the interrogation ended.

Now after going through all my computers and sitting handcuffed to my couch for hours basically to sundown so about 9:00 hours they gave me back one of my laptops said I might be telling the truth and if I do not hear back from them within 3 months to go about my life.

9 months later after going to a therapist after going to groups and receiving the help I told law enforcement I would I received a phone call from the detective he asked me where I was and was pretty clueless on my living situation. He said he need me to turn myself in and that he was sorry but he had to arrest me I asked him why he said I broke the law and I told him I didn’t. I said I could walk to the nearest sheriff’s department he said that wasn’t good for him and he wanted me to turn myself in next week. If I’m such a threat why would he wait a week for me to go to jail he even set up my bail.

Apparently something was worked out a plea deal of sorts that if I pass a polygraph test after getting out and a psychosexual that all I would have is 2 years probation normal probation and adjudication withhold and would not have to register.

I passed my polygraph test with flying colors along with my psych eval. Then they retracted the deal.
This is where I truly believe that law enforcement is about law not Justice which makes them just as much criminals as anybody law should be based on Justice.

So through investigation talking to people I learned there’s a lot more to the story than I previously thought. The big one was my own therapist certified by the state was under investigation apparently he was using previous victims of sexual abuse and getting pictures from them and then giving them to other people you heard me right my own therapist given the stamp of approval by the state was a real monster. I believe they were trying to go through me to get to him. Another thing pornography downloaded or traded through a person to person Network usually goes through FDLE or some type of law enforcement agency. You would think if c**************** is being distributed on this network they would shut it down I learned they control it using it as a ends justify the means kind of way. In other words if illegal pornography is downloaded there is a possibility came directly from the detective. And since the detective is allowed to have exclusive viewing rights to these illegal files what does that make them? I asked repeatedly why they don’t shut down the network but I had to use logic to get my answers. Being honest didn’t matter and the system was rigged and the FDLE wanted somebody that I was affiliated with I wasn’t winning. All this happened while on bail. Now I was only charged with one count but after they added a second count I guess it is what they could convince a court my lawyer decided to play games with me. He said he was losing money on me in the end even after saying many times before that if we went to court it was a win able situation he started changing his tone. He said I’ll be crucified in court that my plea deal is now 3 years prison time and that he would not be representing me even though I paid him to do so he had some inexperienced person on his firm now representing me. Now I didn’t realize 3 years straight prison time no probation was even a deal for my situation innocent or not. I was was eventually offered 51 weeks and 3 years probation which I signed for the judge unknowingly added a year that I did not sign for. After I was given a week to decide what I wanted to do. Having no more money being lied to by my lawyer that I paid for and the constant games everybody was playing I decided it was a lesser of evils if I was definitely going to lose in court and my innocence did not matter I was going to find a way to fight back once I realized it was next to impossible. In order to be able to fight back though I couldn’t be in prison for 10 years that’s right they wanted to give me the max sentencing if I decided to go to court and there was no winning. Jail changed me I realize the system was racist, sexist and emotionally and mentally destructive. Now that I’m out I’m just trying to rebuild my life I am viewed as an evil monster when I have never even hurt a child. my denial on my polygraph doesn’t matter my psych eval doesn’t matter and I realize there’s a whole business dedicating itself to keeping you in the system and making money any denial or psych eval now if done through the system was going to have the worst results. I also learned you’re only as free as you can pay for everything comes with a price tag it has nothing to do with Justice. I’ve learned the system is sick and twisted and needs to be changed.

I would like to add that growing up I was a victim of sexual abuse on levels that are beyond messed up. One of these times I was even in the states custody a group home of sorts. Now I’m being viewed in the same way as those monsters. I used to believe in the system and in law enforcement now I realize the majority of the people that work for the system are truly not heroes and the power people have given them has gone straight to their head. I have lost all trust in people.

If there is anything or any information that I can use or that can be done please email me. I do not want to feel helpless I need to do something about my situation and things need to change.

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