This story is rounded up to the hard points. As a 19yo kid I screwed up very bad, having not too much experience drinking through high school or pretty boring experience nonetheless. I was the quiet docile guy most of my life, and I still am. One night in the very basics of it all, I drank far too much more than someone inexperienced should, and so did my “victim”. A 14yo girl that lied to her parents, and about her age to us, to go party with the older friends and her group. I met these people only by associates. I know what happened, and what didn’t happen from what I remember. Doing what teenagers do, things just took place that would forever ruin both our lives as 2 innocent, yet not so innocent humans do naturally.
Fast forward I get messaged “I didn’t want to get you in trouble, parents and cops made me tell everything ” after I had gotten trapped by police and already taken away the night before.
My crime is one of stupidity, and a kid that doesn’t exist anymore. I am 31 years old at the time of me writing this in 2021. Every single day I wake up with the factor on my mind that for the rest of my life I have to report as a tier 3 offender only because of other unrelated cases were tied in unfairly that had nothing to do with sexual nonsense, but got off with 5 years probation. Its long over now. But the incredible destruction to my life it has caused is indescribable.
I consider myself pretty attractive, great personality, musician, full of life, good job, but behind my smile I cannot be on social media, I cannot be on dating sites, I cannot find someone who is very understanding of my position in life and the difficulty I endure. And if i do, it can’t last long before it hits a point “this might be a problem but….”. My future?…immense unending depression.
It’s amazing I’ve gone this long enduring the hell of missing out on a lot of my 20s other than still being under the radar where I can be, socially. Now there’s quite a few that understand, but those are just my friends. I so dearly wish I had the funds to get myself reclassified, or completely thrown out from this living hell I put up with daily. I’ve been attacked and beaten by people that thought they knew the situation, a few years back. They were wrong. I am not a monster. This victim didn’t want this. I do not deserve this for who I am, I could have so much more of an amazing future but I am destroyed by this. I want a do-over so badly, and I need help, but I am screaming into a bucket and nobody is listening. Please change this bear trap that destroys lives, it is truly cruel and unusual punishment and far outside the judicial necessity.