I am 15 years old and have experienced far too much for my age. I have seen my father in handcuffs and seen him behind glass. I have sat in court and listened to all of his charges being listed, all of the terrible crimes he has committed. I see him for less than 39 hours in one year. People work for longer than that in one week. I have seen child pornography on his electronic devices, horrific enough to give me nightmares to this day. I have testified both for and against him. I have prayed and got nothing but silence.
The registry has done just as much damage. My family and I have been harassed. We’ve gotten animal feces smeared on our front door. Years ago, when my sibling was 11 or so, she was bullied due to something she had no involvement in. She was pushed down a flight of stairs. The bullying became severe to the point we had to move.
Life on the registry has caused both my father and mother to turn to drugs in the past (they are clean now). My father was homeless for around 2 years because everywhere we can afford is in a disallowed zone. At a homeless shelter, he was cornered and threatened. He was unable to get a job, which drastically impacted our finances. We have lived on the verge of homelessness for years.
My own family has stopped talking to my sibling and I due to my father’s actions. We have been isolated. I missed out on my younger family members’ childhoods. We are left out on holidays. We have struggled financially and gotten almost no assistance.
I live everyday in fear, with this secret hanging over my head. If my own family will leave me over something I didn’t do, my friends probably will, too.
When people scribble ‘rapist’ on a sex offenders’ window, nobody considers what his 8 year old daughters’ reaction will be. Nobody thinks about how his 8 year old daughter will feel when her best friends are torn away from her. Nobody has ever thought of me and I have doubts that anyone ever will.
Thank you for reading.